We are all connected. That's the
painful and powerful reality that keeps resounding in my head after
the week of Seed workshops and travel to visit the placements in both
the city of Medellin and the department of Choco. As Seeders, we are
members of a team, and although we spend most of our time working
within our individual jobs and communities, we also are necessarily
linked with our fellow Seeders. This means that, as a team, we
somehow have to figure out how to handle vast differences in living
style, work requirements, and contexts. We have to negotiate the
differences in a way that doesn't make us resentful, and allows us to
confront our own choices. It's a challenge in dialogue- can we talk
our way through circumstances that try to separate us?
Colombia's vast geographic diversity
manifests itself in incredible regional differences. At the start of
the Seed program, our facilitators told us that each region was
almost its own country, because of its particular accent, culture,
industry, level of poverty, climate, etc. I didn't fully realize
just how different the regions were until seeing three- Medellin
(Antioquia), el Chocó, and
the Carribbean Coast in a space of two weeks.
I have spent the last
seven months adjusting to life on the coast. I live in an extremely
rural, isolated context, in a community where everyone farms, even
the teachers and shopowners. There is no industry, and everyone,
although rich in food resources, is very poor. Many are illiterate.
The schools opened two months late, there is no health clinic or even
nurse for two hours in every direction, and in the rainy season, the
road becomes completely impassable. Also, the community is
rebuilding their former strength after being violently displaced by
paramilitary and guerrilla forces twelve years ago, then returning
slowly over the last ten years. The community is made up of fiercely
independent Afro-descendent and indigenous Colombians, who have
organized into a community council that struggles to unite the
community in its search for economic development and social healing.
My work is often difficult, and made up of thinking about how to
address high levels of material needs and the complete lack of
services or economic opportunities, alongside the distrust and
reluctance to collaborate among the wider community.
As I boarded the plane to
Medellin, my stomach sank with worry. I didn't know how I was going
to react to being in one of Colombia's beautiful cities, especially
visiting the work and apartment of my dear friend and fellow Seeder,
Jessica Sarriot. I have become quite defensive about the
difficulties of the coast, both in the work and in the lifestyle, and
being in Medellin was just going to make things worse. I spent the
first few days amazed at just how opposite our lives were, as we took
taxis, drank the tap water, and visited with some of her
professional, well-studied collegues and friends. One of the
evenings, we went downtown to the largest sports complex in Latin
America to play beach volleyball. I became more and more confused.
How could we enjoy this, I thought, when most of the coast doesn't
have adequate roads? Of course, there was a huge group of police
searching the grounds outside the stadium for knives, hidden while
people attended the soccer game, reminding us that Medellin has one
of the highest levels of urban violence and narco-traffiking in the
world. How can we relate our work- on one side almost completely
defined by the poverty of the region, and on the other, connecting
the work of the church with the context of
urban violence? How do I keep from resenting her internet access,
metro system, and botanical gardens, and how does she keep from
resenting my I've-got-it-the-worst attitude? Above all, how do we
understand and work in a country where one region has world-class
social and cultural institutions, prolific industry, and strong
public services, and another isn't even able to open its schools on
time?
Then we went to
Chocó, and
things got more complicated. The heat as the plane door opened
reminded me of the coast, but disembarking, I realized that it was
completely different. Just forty-five minutes away by plane from
Medellin, we were in the middle of dense, humid forest, where almost
all transportation is by river. However, I was amazed as we arrived
at Istmina, the town where the Seeders Carolina Perez and Cellia
Maria Vasquez live, at just how developed it actually was. I was
expecting something similar from the isolated, poor, small-scale
farming towns of my region, and was completely unprepared to find a
bustling city.
Choco's industry is mainly
gold mining or coca cultivation, both of which yield much more money
than standard crop farming. Perhaps there is more money moving, but
the region is startlingly precarious. Because many farmers have
switched to grow coca, food is imported from the same Medellin, at
sky-high prices. Environmentally, gold mining threatens the richness
of the soil and the entire water supply, especially the massive river
systems. The presence of the federal government is laughable, made
up mostly of army fumigation campaigns and corrupt police stations.
As we walked through gold mines where mercury is used for extraction
then discarded in the water supply, talked with coca farmers, and
quietly discussed the obvious presence of guerrilla and paramilitary
groups in the towns, we began to realize just how huge the threats to
stability and peace actually are.
I grappled with the
new information as we saw more of Chocó
and returned to Medellin. The puzzle of Colombia was becoming more
complicated with each new piece that we added. The Seeders gathered
for a discussion about how to understand differences in context,
especially relating to vacation and days of rest. This conversation
and various others that took place that week weren't easy, but I
found myself profoundly grateful for the perspective offered by the
other Seeders. We discovered that, now matter how good our
intentions, we still compare and feel jealous or guilty about the
difficulties of our placements. Some of us can see fellow Seeders
more often; others are more in touch with their families. Some of us
have the anonymous freedom of cities, while others are in small
communities where everything they do is known. Although we naturally
compare, we have to recognize that every place has its difficulties
and strengths, and each of us must be allowed to feel freely, without
guilt or resentment.
During a late night
discussion in Chocó, Carolina and I talked about the word
“solidarity.” Even as we seek to be in solidarity with our
communities, we have to remember that Seed is also our community. If
the way we live doesn't allow us to be in solidarity with the other
Seeders, we have to question ourselves. If my lifestyle means that I
close my heart to empathy with Jessica in Medellin, I need to make
some changes. If my defensiveness about the hardship on the coast
means that I can't see the justice issues in Chocó and talk about
them honestly with Carolina and Cellia, I need to take a look at
myself.
Perhaps it is a big jump,
but I believe that these conversations are the same ones we must have
about the various strange puzzle pieces of Colombia. The regions are
so different, but we can see uniting threads of economic hardship,
violence from illegal armed groups, the enticement of illegal crops,
government abandonment, and many more. The challenge is to refuse to
divide and separate, but to see every problem as interconnected, and
to likewise build an interconnected movement for peace and justice.
In the same way, perhaps, we Seeders strive to look at a wide field
of experience and difficulty, and construct a community vision of
solidarity and hope.
As I dig deeper into the
Seed program, I am finding a richness that challenges me in ways I
did not expect. Through community, through dialogue, through walking
with each other and talking things out, we are challenged to wake up
to difficult realities, and not just shrug at difference, but try to
actually wrestle with it. I am so grateful to those who are walking
with me through these days.
You are doing it. This is what it is all about.
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